The Last

Dont worry Dear, I promise I wont cry. I will post this with a very true smile and heart. :)

I was half joking, when I text you and said, "can we go out at this afternoon?"
You didnt text me back at that time. But when I was working on my try out you text me? "go out where?" i said up to you, movies maybe?
And you said that you didnt want to. I wasnt hoping much and i just said that i want to take my hairclip but then you said. "lets go to the movies." i was so hyped. Then you picked me up at my friend house. We watched This Means War, a romantic, action, comedy film. You were so happy, laugh out loud. We bought cute candies and I'm so happy to see you smile. :)
We did a lot of fun, yeah we went home at 4 pm but I can get in to my house because no one was there. So we sit at the car and talk much. We talked about our past.

I: dont you love someone right now?
R: Nope. I dnt know but i feel like cold. Flat. And nothing's working out my heart
I: not even a super tiny little bit feelings?
R: No

I was hurt, but I dont know why i'm still smiling. At least now I know. You dont have feelings for me. At least i wont expect anything more from you.

R: I feel happier being single. In a relationship means you're tied. But When you're single, you can be close with everyone.
I: one day you'll understand, when you finally love a girl, you dont want her to be close with someone else

I tickled you because you were so anmoying and you tickle me back. I love when we get close. felt like you half-hug me. And the way you put your head on my arms, the way you feel comfort when i cuddle you like a cat. :)
But then I see, you dont love me anyway. But I'm still happy. Even when I decide this is the last time I get close to you, the last post I will wrote for you, i still feel the love. And I'm fine. Totally fine. Thank you. That's the only thing that I can say.

I: i believe, lots of girls like you. But the one who really care? I dont know.
R: you're right, i think i'm going to tweet that!

I'm the one who really care, have and will always been. but now on i decide to take care of you from the far sight. :)

Good qoutes from the film,

"Is it possible to love 2 men equally?"
"To love? Yes. But to be in love? No. Dont go with the better guy, go with the one that makes you better"
I know I should choose, and i think i have chosen.
Thanks for the super hype beautiful days. I love you MRB