The Priority of My Heart

Happy Valentine my ex
What do you think you tweet?!?! Why it had to be 'ex' not 'exes'? It keeps me wondering whom it is for. :(
Like you're the only ex he has, Nga said Ms. S
I know, that's why i was confused. I shouldnt be so confident, hoping it was me. But it's true, I cant stop thinking about it. And the desire to post something about Mr. C gone in a second. Because it always has been you. The priority of my heart.
I text you twice and it all end with read only. I know I should accept that. But know what's right to do doesnt mean we can do it, does it?
And then the next day you text me. What a surprise? You ask for your shirt. Half of my heart say yes so I can meet you. But the other side say i should try to keep the t-shirt.

Now nothing feels right when I'm not with you
Sick of this dress and these Jimmy Choo’s
Taking them off ‘cause I feel a fool
Trying to dress up when I’m missing you

I'ma step out of this lingerie
Curl up in a ball with something Hanes
In bed I lay, with nothing but your t-shirt on
(I’m all by myself with)
With nothing but your t-shirt on,
-T-Shirt Shontelle

Then I decided to say yes. So you came over, and then we went to places just searching my shampoo. And because my hard struggle finally we didnt get the shampoo, but we did photobox!! My dream came true. Thank you Love. :)
I told you things that I feel about those hurt feelings. Even though you didnt say something, i just felt better. The best part of that day is,
"Kamu tau ngga ada yang protes sama dp kamu?"
"Siapa gitu? Si ____? emg dia gimana?"
"ya gitulah ngtweet *PIIIIIIP*. ya lagian emang cewe nya ganjen sih ke kamu apaan nyender2."
"ehh. Cewe gue itu."
And then I was super shocked. I kept asking if it's true. But you stood still. And then I was suddenly sad, stop talking and not responding your jokes. And you said.
"pasti jadi galau ya? Ngga atuh bukan, ga punya pacar da."
Oh shit maaaaaan. You played me. T-T
And all I said was,
"Ngga ko, sebenernya ga galau. Mau kamu punya pacar seratus juga ga akan ngubah apapun."

I wish I could rip out a page of my memory
'Cause I put to much energy in him and me
Can't wait till I get through this phase 'cause it's killing me
Too bad we can't rewrite our own history

Such a mystery when he's here with me
It's hard to believe I'm still lonely
Chances fading now, patience running out
This ain't how it's supposed to be

I'm having nightmares from sleeping with the enemy
How do we reverse the chemistry?
I don't want us to be the end of me
This love is taking all of my energy, energy, my energy
Taking all of my energy, energy, my energy
Taking all of my energy

Seems only like yesterday, not even gravity
Could keep your feet off the ground when you were with me
How could two be as one then become so divided now?
There's no use hiding from misery, no
-Energy Keri Hilson
I love you. Thanks for everything. Hope to see you soon. :)