You got me counting the seconds
It happens every time
I'm waiting for the moment
we can sit down and talk for a while
And every time that you're near me
my heart is running away
How can I tell you when words don't come easy
and there is so much I'm trying to say
I wanna know that love will surround us
and you'll share it with me every day
Tell me you'll care for me now and forever
I'll give anything to hear you say
that I'm more than a friend
I'm gonna try in the future
not to live in the past
I guess that I was a dreamer
if I thought it could ever last
But every time that I see you
you bring me out in the sun
How can I hide it when we are together
I just know that you're the only one
I wanna make you see
everything you are to me
Try to understand
I wonder if you can
The love I have for you
will always be true
- More Than a Friend MLTR
Monday 27 February 2012
The Last
Dont worry Dear, I promise I wont cry. I will post this with a very true smile and heart. :)
I was half joking, when I text you and said, "can we go out at this afternoon?"
You didnt text me back at that time. But when I was working on my try out you text me? "go out where?" i said up to you, movies maybe?
And you said that you didnt want to. I wasnt hoping much and i just said that i want to take my hairclip but then you said. "lets go to the movies." i was so hyped. Then you picked me up at my friend house. We watched This Means War, a romantic, action, comedy film. You were so happy, laugh out loud. We bought cute candies and I'm so happy to see you smile. :)
We did a lot of fun, yeah we went home at 4 pm but I can get in to my house because no one was there. So we sit at the car and talk much. We talked about our past.
I: dont you love someone right now?
R: Nope. I dnt know but i feel like cold. Flat. And nothing's working out my heart
I: not even a super tiny little bit feelings?
R: No
I was hurt, but I dont know why i'm still smiling. At least now I know. You dont have feelings for me. At least i wont expect anything more from you.
R: I feel happier being single. In a relationship means you're tied. But When you're single, you can be close with everyone.
I: one day you'll understand, when you finally love a girl, you dont want her to be close with someone else
I tickled you because you were so anmoying and you tickle me back. I love when we get close. felt like you half-hug me. And the way you put your head on my arms, the way you feel comfort when i cuddle you like a cat. :)
But then I see, you dont love me anyway. But I'm still happy. Even when I decide this is the last time I get close to you, the last post I will wrote for you, i still feel the love. And I'm fine. Totally fine. Thank you. That's the only thing that I can say.
I: i believe, lots of girls like you. But the one who really care? I dont know.
R: you're right, i think i'm going to tweet that!
I'm the one who really care, have and will always been. but now on i decide to take care of you from the far sight. :)
Good qoutes from the film,
"Is it possible to love 2 men equally?"
"To love? Yes. But to be in love? No. Dont go with the better guy, go with the one that makes you better"
I know I should choose, and i think i have chosen.
Thanks for the super hype beautiful days. I love you MRB
I was half joking, when I text you and said, "can we go out at this afternoon?"
You didnt text me back at that time. But when I was working on my try out you text me? "go out where?" i said up to you, movies maybe?
And you said that you didnt want to. I wasnt hoping much and i just said that i want to take my hairclip but then you said. "lets go to the movies." i was so hyped. Then you picked me up at my friend house. We watched This Means War, a romantic, action, comedy film. You were so happy, laugh out loud. We bought cute candies and I'm so happy to see you smile. :)
We did a lot of fun, yeah we went home at 4 pm but I can get in to my house because no one was there. So we sit at the car and talk much. We talked about our past.
I: dont you love someone right now?
R: Nope. I dnt know but i feel like cold. Flat. And nothing's working out my heart
I: not even a super tiny little bit feelings?
R: No
I was hurt, but I dont know why i'm still smiling. At least now I know. You dont have feelings for me. At least i wont expect anything more from you.
R: I feel happier being single. In a relationship means you're tied. But When you're single, you can be close with everyone.
I: one day you'll understand, when you finally love a girl, you dont want her to be close with someone else
I tickled you because you were so anmoying and you tickle me back. I love when we get close. felt like you half-hug me. And the way you put your head on my arms, the way you feel comfort when i cuddle you like a cat. :)
But then I see, you dont love me anyway. But I'm still happy. Even when I decide this is the last time I get close to you, the last post I will wrote for you, i still feel the love. And I'm fine. Totally fine. Thank you. That's the only thing that I can say.
I: i believe, lots of girls like you. But the one who really care? I dont know.
R: you're right, i think i'm going to tweet that!
I'm the one who really care, have and will always been. but now on i decide to take care of you from the far sight. :)
Good qoutes from the film,
"Is it possible to love 2 men equally?"
"To love? Yes. But to be in love? No. Dont go with the better guy, go with the one that makes you better"
I know I should choose, and i think i have chosen.
Thanks for the super hype beautiful days. I love you MRB
Saturday 18 February 2012
The Priority of My Heart
Happy Valentine my ex
What do you think you tweet?!?! Why it had to be 'ex' not 'exes'? It keeps me wondering whom it is for. :(
Like you're the only ex he has, Nga said Ms. S
I know, that's why i was confused. I shouldnt be so confident, hoping it was me. But it's true, I cant stop thinking about it. And the desire to post something about Mr. C gone in a second. Because it always has been you. The priority of my heart.
I text you twice and it all end with read only. I know I should accept that. But know what's right to do doesnt mean we can do it, does it?
And then the next day you text me. What a surprise? You ask for your shirt. Half of my heart say yes so I can meet you. But the other side say i should try to keep the t-shirt.
Now nothing feels right when I'm not with you
Sick of this dress and these Jimmy Choo’s
Taking them off ‘cause I feel a fool
Trying to dress up when I’m missing you
I'ma step out of this lingerie
Curl up in a ball with something Hanes
In bed I lay, with nothing but your t-shirt on
(I’m all by myself with)
With nothing but your t-shirt on,
-T-Shirt Shontelle
Then I decided to say yes. So you came over, and then we went to places just searching my shampoo. And because my hard struggle finally we didnt get the shampoo, but we did photobox!! My dream came true. Thank you Love. :)
I told you things that I feel about those hurt feelings. Even though you didnt say something, i just felt better. The best part of that day is,
"Kamu tau ngga ada yang protes sama dp kamu?"
"Siapa gitu? Si ____? emg dia gimana?"
"ya gitulah ngtweet *PIIIIIIP*. ya lagian emang cewe nya ganjen sih ke kamu apaan nyender2."
"ehh. Cewe gue itu."
And then I was super shocked. I kept asking if it's true. But you stood still. And then I was suddenly sad, stop talking and not responding your jokes. And you said.
"pasti jadi galau ya? Ngga atuh bukan, ga punya pacar da."
Oh shit maaaaaan. You played me. T-T
And all I said was,
"Ngga ko, sebenernya ga galau. Mau kamu punya pacar seratus juga ga akan ngubah apapun."
I wish I could rip out a page of my memory
'Cause I put to much energy in him and me
Can't wait till I get through this phase 'cause it's killing me
Too bad we can't rewrite our own history
Such a mystery when he's here with me
It's hard to believe I'm still lonely
Chances fading now, patience running out
This ain't how it's supposed to be
I'm having nightmares from sleeping with the enemy
How do we reverse the chemistry?
I don't want us to be the end of me
This love is taking all of my energy, energy, my energy
Taking all of my energy, energy, my energy
Taking all of my energy
Seems only like yesterday, not even gravity
Could keep your feet off the ground when you were with me
How could two be as one then become so divided now?
There's no use hiding from misery, no
-Energy Keri Hilson
I love you. Thanks for everything. Hope to see you soon. :)
What do you think you tweet?!?! Why it had to be 'ex' not 'exes'? It keeps me wondering whom it is for. :(
Like you're the only ex he has, Nga said Ms. S
I know, that's why i was confused. I shouldnt be so confident, hoping it was me. But it's true, I cant stop thinking about it. And the desire to post something about Mr. C gone in a second. Because it always has been you. The priority of my heart.
I text you twice and it all end with read only. I know I should accept that. But know what's right to do doesnt mean we can do it, does it?
And then the next day you text me. What a surprise? You ask for your shirt. Half of my heart say yes so I can meet you. But the other side say i should try to keep the t-shirt.
Now nothing feels right when I'm not with you
Sick of this dress and these Jimmy Choo’s
Taking them off ‘cause I feel a fool
Trying to dress up when I’m missing you
I'ma step out of this lingerie
Curl up in a ball with something Hanes
In bed I lay, with nothing but your t-shirt on
(I’m all by myself with)
With nothing but your t-shirt on,
-T-Shirt Shontelle
Then I decided to say yes. So you came over, and then we went to places just searching my shampoo. And because my hard struggle finally we didnt get the shampoo, but we did photobox!! My dream came true. Thank you Love. :)
I told you things that I feel about those hurt feelings. Even though you didnt say something, i just felt better. The best part of that day is,
"Kamu tau ngga ada yang protes sama dp kamu?"
"Siapa gitu? Si ____? emg dia gimana?"
"ya gitulah ngtweet *PIIIIIIP*. ya lagian emang cewe nya ganjen sih ke kamu apaan nyender2."
"ehh. Cewe gue itu."
And then I was super shocked. I kept asking if it's true. But you stood still. And then I was suddenly sad, stop talking and not responding your jokes. And you said.
"pasti jadi galau ya? Ngga atuh bukan, ga punya pacar da."
Oh shit maaaaaan. You played me. T-T
And all I said was,
"Ngga ko, sebenernya ga galau. Mau kamu punya pacar seratus juga ga akan ngubah apapun."
I wish I could rip out a page of my memory
'Cause I put to much energy in him and me
Can't wait till I get through this phase 'cause it's killing me
Too bad we can't rewrite our own history
Such a mystery when he's here with me
It's hard to believe I'm still lonely
Chances fading now, patience running out
This ain't how it's supposed to be
I'm having nightmares from sleeping with the enemy
How do we reverse the chemistry?
I don't want us to be the end of me
This love is taking all of my energy, energy, my energy
Taking all of my energy, energy, my energy
Taking all of my energy
Seems only like yesterday, not even gravity
Could keep your feet off the ground when you were with me
How could two be as one then become so divided now?
There's no use hiding from misery, no
-Energy Keri Hilson
I love you. Thanks for everything. Hope to see you soon. :)
Tuesday 14 February 2012
Sunshine Becomes You
Maaf ya. Sekali aja Aku pengen posting pake bahasa Indonesia. Udah ga ngerti lagi soalnya. Udah males banget kalau harus translate.
Barusan, sejak sekitar 4 jam yang lalu aku baca sebuah novel. Judulnya Sunshine Becomes You karya Ilana Tan. Kisahnya simpel. Cuma dari benci, jadi cinta terus taunya cewenya sakit parah dan selanjutnya. Tapi entah karena bahasanya yang enak, ringan rasanya novelnya jadi rame atau entah karena tiap si penulis ngegambarin Alex, aku jadi kebayang kamu. Dinginnya, jahatnya, cueknya, tukang nyuruh2nya, gantengnya, pokonya yang kebayang kamu aja. Tapi ternyata dikit2 Alex juga peduli. Mungkin awalnya simpel, terpaksa karena Mianya baik. Tapi ternyata ujung2nya malah dia yg suka banget sama Mia. Baiiiiik banget sama Mia. Mulai ngasih senyum sama Mia, mulai mau nanya Mia baik2 aja apa engga. Sampai yang jadi nganter kemana2, sampe mereka HTSan, gandengan tangan. Meskipun sempet ada beberapa orang pengganggu tapi tetep akhirnya mereka berdua juga.
Kadang aku mikir, pengen kaya novelnya. Pengen kamu berubah jadi baiiiiik banget, jadi sayang sama aku. Namanya juga ngarep. Kenapa aku ga boleh ngarep coba? Terserah aku kan? Tapi ya yaudah sih. Ini kan cuma berandai2. Pengen kl ad yg nanya kamu. "Kau sangat mencintainya bukan?" terus kamu jawab. "sepenuh hati." kapan km sadar ya kl ga akan ada lagi orang yang bisa sayang banget sama kamu kaya aku?
waktu liat dp2 baru kamu, asa nyesek juga beneran. Mungkin gara2 apa yang terjadi akhir2 ini. Tapi begitu liat org lain yg suka juga sama kamu ngeluh liat dp kamu juga. Aku sadar, kl aku bisa dan selalu sayang kamu dengan cara yang beda sama orang lain. Terus waktu aku selesai baca novelnya, aku ga jadi pengen jadi kaya novel. Aku mau hidup aja sama kamu. Ada pas km butuh seseorang. Terserah deh km mau nganggep aku apa. Cuma sayang sama kamu yang bikin aku tenang dan ga pusing. Dan aku selalu yakin kalau menangis bukan cara mencintai kamu yang baik. :)
I wont ask you to love me. I just ask you please call me when you need someone to hold on.
Gausah di kasih label ya? Kamu juga pasti tau postingan ini untuk kamu.
Barusan, sejak sekitar 4 jam yang lalu aku baca sebuah novel. Judulnya Sunshine Becomes You karya Ilana Tan. Kisahnya simpel. Cuma dari benci, jadi cinta terus taunya cewenya sakit parah dan selanjutnya. Tapi entah karena bahasanya yang enak, ringan rasanya novelnya jadi rame atau entah karena tiap si penulis ngegambarin Alex, aku jadi kebayang kamu. Dinginnya, jahatnya, cueknya, tukang nyuruh2nya, gantengnya, pokonya yang kebayang kamu aja. Tapi ternyata dikit2 Alex juga peduli. Mungkin awalnya simpel, terpaksa karena Mianya baik. Tapi ternyata ujung2nya malah dia yg suka banget sama Mia. Baiiiiik banget sama Mia. Mulai ngasih senyum sama Mia, mulai mau nanya Mia baik2 aja apa engga. Sampai yang jadi nganter kemana2, sampe mereka HTSan, gandengan tangan. Meskipun sempet ada beberapa orang pengganggu tapi tetep akhirnya mereka berdua juga.
Kadang aku mikir, pengen kaya novelnya. Pengen kamu berubah jadi baiiiiik banget, jadi sayang sama aku. Namanya juga ngarep. Kenapa aku ga boleh ngarep coba? Terserah aku kan? Tapi ya yaudah sih. Ini kan cuma berandai2. Pengen kl ad yg nanya kamu. "Kau sangat mencintainya bukan?" terus kamu jawab. "sepenuh hati." kapan km sadar ya kl ga akan ada lagi orang yang bisa sayang banget sama kamu kaya aku?
waktu liat dp2 baru kamu, asa nyesek juga beneran. Mungkin gara2 apa yang terjadi akhir2 ini. Tapi begitu liat org lain yg suka juga sama kamu ngeluh liat dp kamu juga. Aku sadar, kl aku bisa dan selalu sayang kamu dengan cara yang beda sama orang lain. Terus waktu aku selesai baca novelnya, aku ga jadi pengen jadi kaya novel. Aku mau hidup aja sama kamu. Ada pas km butuh seseorang. Terserah deh km mau nganggep aku apa. Cuma sayang sama kamu yang bikin aku tenang dan ga pusing. Dan aku selalu yakin kalau menangis bukan cara mencintai kamu yang baik. :)
I wont ask you to love me. I just ask you please call me when you need someone to hold on.
Gausah di kasih label ya? Kamu juga pasti tau postingan ini untuk kamu.
Monday 6 February 2012
Do you feel like this?
Now that we are over as the loving kind
We'll be dreaming ways to keep the good alive
Only when we want is not a compromise
I'd be pouring tears into your drying eyes
Friends, lovers or nothing
There can only be one
Friends, lovers or nothing
There'll never be an in-between, so give it up
You whisper "come on over" 'cause you're two drinks in
But in the morning, I will say goodbye again
Think we'll never fall into the jealous game?
The streets all flood with blood of those who felt the
Anything other than yes is no
Anything other than stay is go
Anything less than "I love you" is lying
Friends, Lovers or Nothing - John Mayer
We'll be dreaming ways to keep the good alive
Only when we want is not a compromise
I'd be pouring tears into your drying eyes
Friends, lovers or nothing
There can only be one
Friends, lovers or nothing
There'll never be an in-between, so give it up
You whisper "come on over" 'cause you're two drinks in
But in the morning, I will say goodbye again
Think we'll never fall into the jealous game?
The streets all flood with blood of those who felt the
Anything other than yes is no
Anything other than stay is go
Anything less than "I love you" is lying
Friends, Lovers or Nothing - John Mayer
Sunday 5 February 2012
While I'm here thinking of you. Hoping for you. I dont even know whom are you thinking about out there.
mungkin memang ku yang harus mengerti
bilaku bukan yang ingin kau miliki
salahkah ku bila kaulah yang ada di hatiku?
adakah ku singgah di hatimu?
mungkinkah kau rindukan adaku?
adakah ku sedikit di hatimu?
bilakah ku mengganggu harimu
mungkinkah tak inginkan adaku
akankah ku sedikit di hatimu?
bila memang ku yang harus mengerti
mengapa cintamu tak dapat kumuliki
bila cinta kita tak kan tercipta
ku hanya sekedar ingin tuk mengerti
adakah diriku singgah di hatimu
dan bilakah kau tau
kaulah yang ada di hatiku
adakah ku di hatimu?
Maliq D'essential - Untitled
mungkin memang ku yang harus mengerti
bilaku bukan yang ingin kau miliki
salahkah ku bila kaulah yang ada di hatiku?
adakah ku singgah di hatimu?
mungkinkah kau rindukan adaku?
adakah ku sedikit di hatimu?
bilakah ku mengganggu harimu
mungkinkah tak inginkan adaku
akankah ku sedikit di hatimu?
bila memang ku yang harus mengerti
mengapa cintamu tak dapat kumuliki
bila cinta kita tak kan tercipta
ku hanya sekedar ingin tuk mengerti
adakah diriku singgah di hatimu
dan bilakah kau tau
kaulah yang ada di hatiku
adakah ku di hatimu?
Maliq D'essential - Untitled
Thank you letter
On that day, you text me.
"what about now? Can you? Where are you?"
I reply it, half joking
"at home. Why dont you come here?"
And surprisingly you said
"ok, just let me finish eating."
OH MY GOD! Dont you know? my heart is pumping and i'm so happy and rollercoasting. WUUUUUU!!!
and waiting for you to come is so frustating me. And then you come, and we went out. Feeling you involve me, I'm so happy. Knowing that you want to help me searching things. Buy me a box of baby bear candy. And I'm so happy. So happy I could die.
And then the next 2 days. When the disaster day come to me. And it's almost late. 8.30 pm I call you asking where you are and ask you to come see me, and you came! What an amazing changes of you. :')
We went to the movie. You being care to me and listen to me. How you say sorry for hrting my hands, how you keep loking at me if I'm asleep. I dont know why I cant cry when I'm with you. You totally stole my heart. So I cant concentrate to other. We went home so late. 1 am. And i was happy-sad dont know why. But, now. You're cold again and i totally dont understand.
But thanks anyway. Thanks for your shoulder. :)
"what about now? Can you? Where are you?"
I reply it, half joking
"at home. Why dont you come here?"
And surprisingly you said
"ok, just let me finish eating."
OH MY GOD! Dont you know? my heart is pumping and i'm so happy and rollercoasting. WUUUUUU!!!
and waiting for you to come is so frustating me. And then you come, and we went out. Feeling you involve me, I'm so happy. Knowing that you want to help me searching things. Buy me a box of baby bear candy. And I'm so happy. So happy I could die.
And then the next 2 days. When the disaster day come to me. And it's almost late. 8.30 pm I call you asking where you are and ask you to come see me, and you came! What an amazing changes of you. :')
We went to the movie. You being care to me and listen to me. How you say sorry for hrting my hands, how you keep loking at me if I'm asleep. I dont know why I cant cry when I'm with you. You totally stole my heart. So I cant concentrate to other. We went home so late. 1 am. And i was happy-sad dont know why. But, now. You're cold again and i totally dont understand.
But thanks anyway. Thanks for your shoulder. :)
Me, angry and tired
I know this is all my fault. But i'm apologizing and still you dont understand and dont want to understand. I try to be what you want but why do you always see me on that way? The negative way. Me too, confused! you know. You ask a lot to me while i dont know who the one I being in a relationship with? Is that you? Or your son?
All i do is only to make your son happy. I know I did something wrong. And you should know that you did too. while I'm bravely say sorry and try to change it day by day, you insult me and hurt me so bad. Thank you anyway. Because I dont know anything else to say to you.
I did something to make your son happy and you said I'm wrong. You say i'm agressive, Over protective etc. All I ask you is dont! Dont act like you know what the hell is going on in my heart and my life because YOU ARE COMPLETELY WRONG!
I admit what I've done wrong. But I can be angry too if you say something that doesnt happen in reality.
And to your son. I love you, if only you would be patient and we'll see God will help us through everything. Just remember I'm right here by your side.
All i do is only to make your son happy. I know I did something wrong. And you should know that you did too. while I'm bravely say sorry and try to change it day by day, you insult me and hurt me so bad. Thank you anyway. Because I dont know anything else to say to you.
I did something to make your son happy and you said I'm wrong. You say i'm agressive, Over protective etc. All I ask you is dont! Dont act like you know what the hell is going on in my heart and my life because YOU ARE COMPLETELY WRONG!
I admit what I've done wrong. But I can be angry too if you say something that doesnt happen in reality.
And to your son. I love you, if only you would be patient and we'll see God will help us through everything. Just remember I'm right here by your side.
Thursday 2 February 2012
Over estimate
Once again, i think. How's your feeling to me? Is there nothing at all? Are you really the freelance guy without feelings?
Sometimes I wonder if we're both afraid. Afraid if we started all as a real relationship, we wont be this happy. I admit it, failed on the second chance with you will hurt me so bad. I prefer waiting until I think we can.... Yeah IF ONLY, you like me. Yeah maybe I over estimate you.
I just want to convince you that you're not my sidekick. I really really want you to know that i love you, so much. But, i'm afraid it would change everything. So i just keep silent.
Do you ever be jealous? I would be very happy if you do.
but, things you, we, do when we're together.... Makes me.... 'Rollercoasting'. too happy too sad until I drowned.
Maybe we're happy when we're together but not as a couple.
Sometimes I wonder if we're both afraid. Afraid if we started all as a real relationship, we wont be this happy. I admit it, failed on the second chance with you will hurt me so bad. I prefer waiting until I think we can.... Yeah IF ONLY, you like me. Yeah maybe I over estimate you.
I just want to convince you that you're not my sidekick. I really really want you to know that i love you, so much. But, i'm afraid it would change everything. So i just keep silent.
Do you ever be jealous? I would be very happy if you do.
but, things you, we, do when we're together.... Makes me.... 'Rollercoasting'. too happy too sad until I drowned.
Maybe we're happy when we're together but not as a couple.
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