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Dgoyoeb

Dont ask how much i was hurt when i know you're dating her. Ask how much i'm happy when i know you're happy. I feel relieved, finally there will be someone who take care of you because i cant. And when my friend say she's a good girl. Well that's good i think. I admit i'm a jealous , it's a sign of love isnt it? But i will try to make it a wise jealousy. As long as you're happy, I'm fine. My friend say," Well, he cant just wait for you to break up with Mr. C, can he?" and yes she's totally right because i wont. I dont know but i thought he is more worthy and clear compared with you. I was hurt but, it's not the first you've made me so i think I'm getting used to it. Then what am I doing lately? Of course I love you a lot till it cant disappear. Meanwhile I know that i cant be your girlfriend. I dont know why you dont like me. maybe it was because all of those rumors spreading behind my back. Well i dont bother because i think someone who loves me wont even hear it. But maybe you're just not my destiny. Yeah whatever i'm tired though. All I had done it was just to make you happy. Because i love it, when i see you smile. maybe it's just how God shows me that you're not for me. That's why i'm walking out. Time will lead me to where i should be. Just take care and be happy. Go your own way and I'll go mine.

Fool

I'm feeling like a fool. Yes that fool, when you try to know the truth and when you've found it the truth is the one that hurts you so bad. I'm sad, i'm hurt but, half of my heart's relieved.
Let me hold you 
For the last time 
It's the last chance to feel again 
But you broke me 
Now I can't feel anything 

When I love you, 
It's so untrue 
I can't even convince myself 
When I'm speaking, 
It's the voice of someone else 

Oh it tears me up 
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much 
I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay 

You can't play on broken strings 
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel 
I can't tell you something that ain't real 
Oh the truth hurts and lies worse 
How can I give anymore 
When I love you a little less than before 
Broken Strings-James Morrison

Whatever we've been through, your smile when you're looking at my scrapbook for you. When you wear that grey sweater and stay beside me. When I whisper jokes and you laugh, all those sacrifices for you, those waits. The hopes, of you having feelings to me. It should be waste away from now on.

If only I didn't care about you. IF ONLY I didn't ask what's wrong with you. If only I didnt ask, whom you love.

I: Jahaaaaaat, ga boleh suka sama cewe laaiiiiin. :(
R: Udah terlanjur suka. Gimana atuh?
I: Suka sama siapa atuh? P? T? M? Y? Y kan udah punya pacar? Atau U? Suka sama siapaaa? :(((
R: siapa yaaa? Kepo.
I: care tau! Suka sama temen sekelas ya? Pasti gara2 maen ke villa itu ya? :(
R: Iya, ngga ko udah lama.

You know what? I think I was like a donkey, or maybe I am.. It's not gonna change my feelings for you. It will always be the same. I love you, I still and will always be. It is not the first time you hurt me but still i cant deny that it hurts me. Why? Because of what we've been through last days, weeks and months.I'm sorry it was all my fault. I'm sorry. Maybe I should be back to the girl who miserably love you while you dont even care and see. Not being the one who use to hang out with you, who hold your hands when watching a movie. It was all my fault.

Sometimes I'm just confused. Why God keep this feeling for you very well in my heart? What does He want? What fate will He faces me with? Why???? Why should I love you this much?

Late, Happy birthday Mate. From your secret lover.

Hard

I found it hard not to post about you. So here I am. Posting for you, again.

Read only, I know. 50% of my messages for you always end up with read only. But doesnt mean i'm not hurt. I'm hurt okay? If only you would CARE. But you dont love me, do you? Not even a super tiny lil bit. That's what hurt most. But there's nothing I can say. I cant be angry.

Something that I feel I need to say
But up to now I’ve always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I want to put this out
You say you’ve got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel you’re not deserving me
And still you’re in my heart
But you’re the only one and yes
There are times when I hate you
But I don’t complain
Cause I’ve been afraid that you would've walk away
Oh but now I don’t hate you
I’m happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day
Broken Hearted Girl Beyonce

Cause right now i'm tired. And i need your cold "dont cry. I miss you. And it's right what Mr. Y said. When you didnt reply my messages, it makes me miss you more, want to see you more, not making me angry or mad. I just believe that you're the one that strong enough to be relied on when I'm down. But unfortunatelly you dont want to. And all I can do is only be patient. I miss you like a damn hell right now but there's nothing I can do.

When you not-officialy say goodbye, It's like I'm watching sunset. Cause I believe you'll be back. I just have to be patient.

Be back soon, Mate. I miss my halfsoul. I'm dying to make you see I need you here right now. I need your personality. I need your tickle, your smile, your big nose and your super big round eyes.

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of a winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best

What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
I wish that I was looking into your eyes
Won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay
Thinking of You Katy Perry

Now it was only just a dream

You got me counting the seconds
It happens every time
I'm waiting for the moment
we can sit down and talk for a while
And every time that you're near me
my heart is running away
How can I tell you when words don't come easy
and there is so much I'm trying to say

I wanna know that love will surround us
and you'll share it with me every day
Tell me you'll care for me now and forever
I'll give anything to hear you say
that I'm more than a friend

I'm gonna try in the future
not to live in the past
I guess that I was a dreamer
if I thought it could ever last
But every time that I see you
you bring me out in the sun
How can I hide it when we are together
I just know that you're the only one

I wanna make you see
everything you are to me
Try to understand
I wonder if you can
The love I have for you
will always be true

- More Than a Friend MLTR